I am accountable…..

I did it….  No sweets and an hour workout!  Wa-hoo!

For tomorrow I…..

1.  Will eat only one sweet/dessert, and share it with a friend.

2.  Will eat at least one fruit and one veggie.

Here I go to hold my feet to the fire…..

Here’s your sign!

I’ve had a sick kiddo in the house since Friday.  After a weekend of unrelenting fever, I took her to the doctor today.  As we are getting settled in the office, the nurse assistant asks if I want a magazine as she is handing me “Fit Pregnancy.”  Think she was trying to tell me something?  If that’s not a sign that I need to take swift action, I don’t know what is!

I’m counting down the minutes until my husband gets home so I can go to the gym, and I’ve jumped back on the “No-S” wagon.  It’s 3:33, and I’m doing well so far.  I also took another positive step of finding an accountability partner.  I frequently check out a blog called Prior Fat Girl.  It’s a great blog if you’re looking for good motivation.  Anyway, one of the post talked about getting an accountability partner to help get through the holidays.  So I reached out to someone who posted.  The accountability of Weight Watchers was something that really worked for me.  Knowing that someone was going to be looking at the scale when I weighed in, really helped keep me on track.  I have a hard time doing that on my own, so I think this will help.

I think I will also use this blog to hold me accountable.  If nothing else, I will see in print what I said I was going to do, and maybe that will keep me more on track.  So here is what I will be held accountable for today…

1.  No Sweets

2.  60 minutes of exercise

Now off to get some work done.

 

So here I am again…..

It’s been ages since I posted.  I think my last one was the end of October.  Let’s just say I’ve been avoiding the issues.  I didn’t want my blog to become a constant whine about what I’m not doing with my weight issues, so I ignored it.  What I realized was that the reason I started this blog was for myself.  I need to write these things down.  I need to get to the bottom of this.  I need to figure out why this is such a struggle for me.

Last year at this time, I was my lowest weight in 15 plus years.  This year I’ve managed to gain it all back and then some.  I cringe every time someone wants to take my picture, because I know I will see the reality of what I have done to my body.  Believe me, it’s not pretty.

On the positive side, I am still going to the gym about 3 times a week.  I know I need to go more, but I let excuses get in the way on the other days.  I just feel so much better when I go, and I need to keep that in my head.

So here’s to another start.  I will succeed BECAUSE I keep trying!!!!!!!!!!

Where was I?

This turned out to be a crazy busy week, so I have had very little time to login much less write a new post.  During this busy week I made both good and bad decisions.  First the good…..  I worked out everyday except for Wed.  Wednesdays are the crazy days in our house, so I had decided in the beginning it would be my rest day.  If I get to work out on that day, great, if not, I don’t give it a second thought.  I saw my trainer again on Tuesday, and he was not as cruel to my upper body as he was to my lower body, so I was at least able to raise my arms the days following that workout.  (It was about 4 days before my legs stopped hurting from the Sunday workout!)

I feel I’m on the right track with the exercise.  It may be a little adjustment next week, as my kids have been off of school the last month, and they return on Monday.  That means homework returns, and that may through a wrench in things.  I’m choosing to stay positive though, and I’m still using the fact that they love going to the gym.  The deal is they do their homework at Grandma’s, and they can go with me to the gym.  Otherwise, I go by myself after they go to bed.  That’s a little risky for me, because I can easily talk myself out of it, if I have to go that late.  So we will see how it goes.

Oh, I did tell you there were bad decisions, and their were many.  I had trouble all week sticking to No S.  I treated every day as a weekend, and while I didn’t return to excessive habits of “pre-NO S” days, I did have snacks and/or sweets every day this week.  Argh!  To put a positive spin on it, I have not given up.  This is a process, and I will take the steps I need to make my body healthier.

Now if I can just stay out of the Halloween candy, all will be good!  Happy Halloween!

Ouch!

I met with my personal trainer for the second time on Sunday.  The workout he avoided giving me on our first meeting, was more than made up for on Sunday.  He started me on a lower body weight routine, and today I feel it.  Seriously, I’m moving around like an 80-year-old woman.  I have muscles in my legs hurting, that I never even knew I had!  I did manage to workout again today, but no weights.  I just did 30  minutes on the elliptical.  To my surprise, that was the only time today I did not hurt!

I see him again on Tuesday, and I’m guessing we’re moving to upper body.  I just hope I can move on Wed!  Work will be interesting! (I sit on the floor most of my work day, so there should be some laughs there.)

I’m continuing on with the No S diet, and it’s still going well.  I only lost .3 pounds this week, but I’m wondering if that has to do with increasing my workout over the last week.  I also have to take into account my Thursday snack attack.  No matter, I’ll take .3 pounds down any day, over what I was doing a few weeks ago!  We’ll see how next week goes.

Now I’m taking this achy body to bed.  Night all!

Picking Myself Back Up

So in my last post I talked about not caving to the snack/sweet craving on Wednesday, but alas it captured me on Thursday.  I caved and had a snack, two desserts AND a very large soda during the day.  (I decided being honest is the best way to keep me on track, so I’m giving it all to you!)  My stomach was hurting by the end of the night, and I was kicking myself for falling off the wagon, yet again.  It didn’t help that my work-out plans were derailed, and I was actually (and surprisingly) annoyed by the derailment.

Typically, that would be it for a while.  I would say, “What’s the point?” and continue my eating frenzy for multiple days, but this morning I woke-up and realized that really it is a new day.  I realized I had two choices; cave again today, and have the accomplishment of putting more fat/pounds/damage on this body, or pick myself up and get back on track today, and have the accomplishment of making a healthy choice for my body.  I am proud to say I made the second choice, and I feel great about it.

I also got to see the impact my healthier decision are having on my kids.  My youngest had a doctor’s appointment today, and his office is on the 5th floor.  Typically, we take the elevator, but when we got their my oldest asked if we could take the stairs.  My first thought was to say, “Five floors?  Are you kidding me, kid????” But I refrained.  I thought for sure they would be complaining by the second floor (and that I would need an oxygen tank!), but to my surprise they both treated it like an adventure, and even said it was fun.  All the way up they were talking about how healthy they were being, and that it was good we were exercising.  Another surprising aspect was that I wasn’t ready to pass out when we reached the top.  While I was definitely breathing a little heavier, I don’t think anyone would have mistaken me for an obscene phone caller when I reached the top.    It’s nice to know my 8 days of working out are already making changes in my endurance.  Imagine what I can accomplish with a year of this healthier life style behind me!

Making it Through the Struggle Days

So today was Day 11 of my No S diet, and it was the first day I really felt the struggle to go “off the wagon.”  I ate lunch, and then I couldn’t stop thinking about getting something for dessert.  I know it was just habit though, because every treat I thought of actually sounded gross, but I still couldn’t stop thinking about making a stop to get one.  I pulled into the local bakery under the “pretense” that I would just use the restroom, knowing full well what I intended to do.  Low and behold, when I walked out of the restroom, I looked at the bakery case, and turned around and walked out.  That was the end of my struggle, and I made it the rest of the day without any issues.  So I’m patting myself on the back for winning that battle.  I know there will be many more.

On another note, I met with the personal trainer yesterday.  I thought we would get straight to the workout last night, but he wanted to talk diet.  He gave me this really complicated diet of 6 meals a day.  They’re broken into an equal number of calories, and you have to make sure to get a certain % of carbs, protein and fat with every meal.  It just seem like way too much work, and that was AFTER I told him I think WW stops working for me because I get tired of thinking about food alllll the time.  So I think I will continue with No S for now.

Wednesdays are the craziest night in our house, so this is the first night I haven’t worked out since joining the gym last Tuesday.  I even went twice on Monday, and did this crazy circuit workout!  I thought my body would hate me the next day, but it wasn’t too bad.  I think that class will become a weekly regular for me.  So here’s to Day 12 of No S, and a prayer that I keep punching this Monster called Obesity in the face!